some things in our life we have no choice about. they are just that way. the parents you have. the weather where you live. the amount of traffic on any given day. what we do have a choice about is how we choose to view these things in our life which we have no control over. i am not good at this. i, ironically, just wrote a post a few day ago called blessed & broken. where i revealed that i am a glass have empty type of girl. i think the Lord is about to teach me a few lessons in my life.
my parents moved to amsterdam at the first of the year. my dad was going there to start a new branch of his company. they were to be there for a little over a year. very exciting and a little scary. we were all supportive but of course did not really want my parents to go. my family is a little different. we are extremely close. we live close. we worship together. often dine together. and in general are very involved in each others everyday lives. my parents needed to come back. they arrived home on tuesday. permanently.
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while in amsterdam my mama started not feeling well. after many trips to the dr, and er. they have come to some conclusions. the amsterdam dr.'s have diagnosed her with ovarian cancer. they think it is advanced. we are not sure. and are waiting to see an amazing dr at the u of m to know for sure. we are choosing to be positive. we will deal with things as they come. for better or worse.
in blessed & broken i wrote about how "easy" my life has been. many people have taken their turn in the line of yucky things. i have not been asked to even get in the line. some have taken multiple turns in front of me. i think it is my families turn in line. we are in the very early stages. some days are good for me. some days are not good. same with my family. same with my mama. she is strong. she has an amazing faith. she knows that whatever the Lords plan is for her, and for us, that it is the right one. because He created it.
in my times of struggle i wish i knew what the plan was. i am a planner. but maybe it is for the best. i need to grow. i need to learn to give my whole world to Him and let Him lead me. i have not been doing that. i have been trying to show Him the way. pretty silly if you think about it. i don't even have the map or know the way. He does. so i choose faith. i choose hope. i choose to spend every free moment with my mama.
please add my mama to your prayer list. send us your uplifting stories. send us your good vibes. most of all, hug your family. tell them today what they have meant to your life. we have always known that this life was temporary. we have always known that He gives and He takes away. according to His will. be thankful for every moment. don't let them pass. don't be so busy in our mama and papa lives that we miss those wonderful, everyday, little moments. make today great. make today lovely.